Today I saw the Pacific ocean for the first time (I'll post more on that later), but I was on a high from that. I had to then drop off my sister Wendy at the airport. After that it hit me like a ton of bricks and I was so sad. On our way home the sun was setting and I couldn't help comparing it to my situation here in California. Part of it is so beautiful and exciting. It's vast and open. On the other side, it is dark and scary and so lonely. It's neverending. I'm hoping today is the end of this downward spiral and now that the goodbyes are over, things will get easier. I'm so grateful for our safety and the blessings we have already received! Thanks for everyone's support and love. Hopefully this aching pain will gradually dull and I can always look at the silver lining of things to come! Wish us luck, and I hope you are all doing well!